Struggles with Spectacles

It’s been a while since I last published an article for my Fab Five list (formerly known as 5 things). Today, I decided to talk about something that is very close to my heart (or eyes if I’m being specific). Remember last month when I talk about my journey to wearing glasses? Well, I’m going to have a follow-up of that article. You see, I’m wearing spectacles for 2 months now. I know that’s a pretty much short period of time, but I already learned a lot about the struggles of people with glasses. I understand that there are much more you can think of right now, but this is my top 5 struggles and these are the things that I experienced personally.

1. My glasses keeps on falling down on my nose

You know, for people who are not THAT gifted in the nose department (which I’m a proud member of) this is a real struggle, I’m telling ya. Just an itty bitty change in the angle my head is balanced, the glasses will fall and becomes misaligned with my eyes. Sometimes, I’m thinking of investing in a robot whose only function is to “PUT BACK IVY’S GLASSES ALIGNED WITH HER EYES”. LOL!

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2. The glasses fogs up whenever I drink something hot

I’m sure I’m not the only one who experiences this, but why the heck did someone NOT tell me about this before?! LOL! I almost had a panic attack when I put my face over a hot bowl of soup (I’m smelling it, okay?) and the fog just devoured my glasses! WOAH! Zero Visibility Alert! I was ready to push any emergency button we had at that time. LOL! But seriously, it freaked me out a little bit. Also, I’m a very sweaty person (especially in my face’s T-zone) in the middle of this very hot country so it happens to me all the time now, and I must tell you I’m not very happy about it.

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3.  Friends were doubtful if your glasses were real or you’re just trying to achieve the “nerdy” look

Just 3 weeks ago, I went out with my group of friends from college and every single one of them asked me if what I’m wearing is a prescription glasses. Some even tried my glasses on. Maybe they had this doubt that my glasses were only a part of my outfit for that day. Actually, that’s the first time that they saw me with something in my eyes so I bet they were actually surprised. I’m guessing that this will be the exact same situation when my other friends see me.

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4. Trying to lie down with your eyeglasses on

This has only become my problem because I love reading in bed or lie down while watching TV. Sometimes, I had to adjust my position based on my glasses’ liking and needs. LOL! If not, I’ll suffer a mini heart attack when I feel it might snap in two, therefore, leaving me with no other glasses to use.

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5. You do not look like yourself without your spectacles

It’s a good morning. You just woke up from your deep slumber when you pass by your mirror hanging on the wall and then you suddenly broke out into singing Disney’s Mulan song “Whoooo is that giiiiiirl I seeeee? Staring straight back at me. Why is my reflection someone I don’t knowwww?” LOL! Even though I’m only wearing mine for 2 months, I can barely recognize my face without my glasses. I’m thinking of it as a certain sort of a shield (from where, I really don’t know). It’s like my face is so bare without it now and to think that I lived 23 years of my life before wearing one. Weird, right?

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There you go guys, these are my top 5 struggles. I guess I just have to accept that eyeglasses are part of my life now and try to live harmoniously with it. LOL! Maybe, one of these days I’ll try to wear contacts but it’s better to take it one step at a time. If you’re wearing one, what other problems can you add to this list? Make sure to share it on the comments! 🙂

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Today, I am Me

You saw me the first time and from then decided you don’t want me. Just one look and you have nothing to do with me. Not in your life, not in your mind. Not now, not ever. You already resolved in your head that I do not belong. That I did not pass your standards. You saw me as an ugly person not worth your while. But why is it every time you see me, on the streets, on whatever place it is, you make me feel less of a person?

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It gives you satisfaction to hurt me. Hurt me physically and emotionally. Even though I’m not a part of your life and you’re not a part of mine, it still hurts the same way as if we’ve known each other all along. You will not stop even if I tell you to. You will only stop in your own time. Not until you have my blood in your hands. Not until you made me feel inferior and afraid. Not until you have my face kissing the ground. You want this. I know you do. That surge of power going through your veins once I’m already begging. It’s an endless cycle. You see me. You hurt me. I fall down. I beg you. Every. Single. Time. But NOT TODAY.

Today, I will think of myself as worthy.

Today, I will pick myself up from the ground and regain my balance. Today, I will clench my fist until I feel that same amount of power that you have every time I fall. Today, I will think of myself as worthy. Worthy to be your opponent. Worthy to be your equal. Worthy of your respect. I don’t want to live this kind of life anymore. I want to be strong for myself. I deserve it. I owe it to the people I love and cares for me.

Today, you will not treat me less of a person because you don’t like me. I will let you know it, in my own way. Different from who you are. Different from what you are. I will not be like your rotten personality. I will stand tall and proud because I am my own person. You will not bring me down with your wicked ways starting today. I will be the person that I want to be and meant to be. Not worrying about you. Not conforming to your standards or any standards for that matter. Today, I am Me.

On fainting in a train station and being grateful for it

I believe a perfect life is a boring life. One must have a few embarrassing moments here and there to laugh about sometimes to escape the stress and insanity that we are facing everyday. But then, I know that all of us have moments that made us pray so hard for the ground to open up and swallow us whole so that we will not be obliged to face the day after. I had many of those moments, but I guess the best ones are the ones you will always remember even years after.

This will be a lengthy post. I suggest you grab your popcorn and read on!

One fateful afternoon during my first year of college, me and my classmate/friend had to go to an electronics shop to buy supplies for our subject that day. The shop was a little far from the university and we had to take the LRT so that we don’t spend too much time traveling.

While going there, I already had this pounding headache because I did skip my breakfast that morning as I was running late for school. Let me tell you that I don’t usually skip my breakfast, I can count on my fingers the times that I had because I know it’s the most important meal of the day.

So, upon arriving at our destination, I can already feel my knees slightly turning into jelly and I was sweating cold beads of sweat. That time, I can only remember telling myself in my head “Just do this one task for school and after this you can eat and feel much better”. Little did I know that I was officially the color of a ghost at that time. My friend was worried about me, so we rushed into buying all of the things that we needed.

Once we were finished, we headed for the LRT station again to return to school. By this time, I knew my eyes were wide open but I started seeing black on the edges of my vision. I can’t focus on anything, even the sounds and the things surrounding me. It’s like my body was so heavy all of a sudden. I know that I am starting to faint (Thank God I didn’t actually lose consciousness). I hugged my friend but because I caught her off guard, we both sunk to the floor. She said she have to buy me food immediately so I let her go.

So, there I was sitting on the LRT station floor, pale-faced, hands sweating and unconscious of the people passing by. Suddenly, out of nowhere, people started to notice me. They approached me and asked me if I was okay (maybe, I really look like cr*p at that time). I can’t forget the middle-aged man who gave me a bottled water saying “Don’t worry, it’s clean”. Some tried to help me stand up and volunteered to bring me to the clinic. Some passengers stopped walking and checked out the commotion that’s happening which, unfortunately, I’m in the middle of.

My friend returned a few minutes after with a donut and water in her hands. She was a bit surprised because 10 or more people were surrounding me and trying to assist me. If I was feeling a bit better at that time, I would probably be as red as a tomato because of embarrassment. Never in my whole life I have imagined to be the center of attention that way. A security guard also arrived and directed us to the clinic. The doctor didn’t find anything wrong with me, it’s just that I have an empty stomach (plus stress too, if I might add – because COLLEGE). He let me eat in the clinic and told me not to skip meals anymore.

It was truly a memorable day for me. There are some days when I want to forget that this happened once in my life. But by writing about it now, I can’t do that anymore. I don’t want to forget that day even though it definitely is an embarrassing one. I don’t want to forget the kindness that people have shown me in my weakest state. I know many people there are also running late and busy with their lives, but they took a few minutes out of their day to help me get back to my feet (figuratively and literally) and for that I am very grateful.

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Oh, look! I got 2 additional eyes!

Last month, I finally had the courage to get myself spectacles. I find it more difficult to see smaller and farther things for the past few months already. At first, I was in denial that I needed eyeglasses. One of the reasons was because most of my family are wearing glasses and I know from their experience that it’s NOT a good thing. “Nothing beats a clear vision”, they say. They had their own regrets of not taking enough good care of their eyes. So, when I started not seeing the volume on the TV and not being able to tell the time without standing up from the couch to the wall and squint my eyes so that I can see, I panicked a little. That’s because I had my whole life eyesight planned out (as if you can plan something like that! LOL!). In my mind, I promised myself to be like my father because he only got glasses in his late 40’s and it’s because of his age (our eyes become weaker by this time) which is a normal (I think) occurrence in a person’s life.

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My new glasses 🙂

Obviously, because I’m in denial, the first thing I did was to completely ignore my eyes’ pleas to have glasses. So I IGNORE it, IGNORE again and IGNORE some more to my heart’s content. But then, you already know what happens next, right? It got worse, you see (no pun intended). So I have no choice but to go to an optometrist and had my eyes checked. The first time I wore the glasses, I got a little bit dizzy and had a mild headache but after a few hours, I think my eyes already adjusted so all is well. I can see things clearly that I haven’t been able to see before.

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While pondering about this experience, I had this thought about life that sometimes, if you feel like the world in front of you is a little bit unclear, blurry and unrecognizable due to something obstructing your vision, sometimes, all it will take is to step back and view the world with a different set of eyes (figuratively, not literally LOL!) and everything would be a clearer version of itself.

Now, if I could only be as adorable as Taylor Swift in glasses, I would be so happy. 🙂

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I got all my sisters with me

There’s a special bond between us that can’t be broken

Sometimes, it’s good to reminisce memories from your childhood. And what better way to remember it than with the people who have been with you through it – my sisters.

We are close. Like really CLOSE.

We were all born only a year apart so I guess that’s a huge factor to our closeness because we are in the same wavelength and same thinking at the same time. We relate to each other almost every experience that we have. My sisters are my confidante, my listeners, my story tellers, my best friends and many more things all rolled into two different individuals.

On a side note, I will call my sisters “C” and “J” here because I don’t want to reveal their names.

She doesn’t really mind what other people say about her as long as she likes the way she lives

My second sister, C, is a dark-haired, petite girl who loves romantic pocketbooks so much. She’s also not interested in social media. I guess she just created her Facebook account because we are constantly bugging her about it. She doesn’t really mind what other people say about her as long as she likes the way she lives. Sometimes, I think she’ll do better as a first child than me. She has a very strong sense of responsibility and a huge heart. She has a very expressive face. You can easily tell if she’s happy, angry or worried. The thing I most like about her is that she’s very perceptive to the needs of other people and I love her for that.

She has this old soul inside of her that sees the world beyond what it really is

My youngest sister is J. A witty, skinny and tall girl. She’s my sister who has a way with words. She loves to write her thoughts and she makes good and meaningful poems. We have the same taste in books and I trust her to recommend me good books. She has this old soul inside of her that sees the world beyond what it is. She’s also a big collector of notebooks and book marks which I think explains her desire to write. She’s just the shy and silent type of person but once she warms up to you and you get to know her, you will feel that she’s one friend that you can trust.

I remember when I was 8 years old, I was admitted to the hospital because of an asthma attack. Being in the hospital for a whole week meant never having to see my sisters often. Sure, they would visit me after school for only 2 hours but that wasn’t enough for me. One night, I cried so hard that my mother asked me what’s wrong and I said it’s because I miss my them so much.

I can’t imagine my life without my sisters. There’s a special bond between us that can’t be broken. We always say we love each other and give each other hugs whenever we want to. I’m grateful that we grew up that way – not afraid to show each other our love. There were times that I imagine having an older brother or just a brother instead, but I guess I wouldn’t be who I am today if I don’t have my sisters with me. They keep my sanity whenever I needed it the most. It’s good to know that they’re always there for me as my support system. I love them very much and I wouldn’t want to change a single thing about it.

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Music is Life

Music is a part of everyone’s life. Maybe more for others than the rest. I, also, love music. It never fails to put me in a good mood whenever I hear one. Maybe my music knowledge or the genres that I have been listening to is not that broad but who cares? As long as it is a song/music that is special to you, it matters. I’m thinking of songs that are significant to me, but there are just so many that I can’t list them all here. There are songs that I listen to when I need to be strong, there are songs that reminds me of my friends and there are songs that I dedicate to my family. If I could pick just 3 in the moment, I would pick these songs and I’ll also include part of the lyrics that just hit me straight in the heart.

ALL TOO WELL by Taylor Swift

Maybe we got lost in translation, maybe I asked for too much,
And maybe this thing was a masterpiece ’til you tore it all up
Running scared, I was there, I remember it all too well…

Taylor Swift is one of my music idols. I don’t care if other people bash her because they don’t like her voice, or they think she doesn’t deserve her success. I like her as a person and she is a one-of-a-kind songwriter. I like how she’s able to relate her feelings and translate it to this truthful and relatable lyrics. All Too Well is one of my favorite songs of Taylor and it is on repeat on my phone currently. I have once read an article about this song that says that it is once a 10-minute song, but since you cannot have a song that long in an album, it is compressed to 4 minutes. Honestly, I would like to put the whole lyrics here because it’s just a sad but beautifully written story.It doesn’t repeat verses and choruses and the melody just captures the emotions that Taylor is trying to convey to her listeners.

BRAVE by Sara Bareilles

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave
With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

I like songs that tells someone to speak up and stand for who they truly are. It doesn’t matter if you think that what you’re about to say is irrelevant but the important thing is you said what you have to say and you gave people a chance to actually listen to you. It’s important for us to know that we have been gifted with beautiful, encouraging words and it is only appropriate to use it to empower yourself and other people.  Pleasing other people is a trait that cannot be removed from us, but sometimes it is a reason why we are afraid to lose control and express what we truly want to say. I also love the music video of this song, it’s fun yet it shows people to not be afraid to stand out.  I actually like many songs that has the same theme as this one, but this is one of the most recent I have so I thought of sharing it with you.

TURN TO YOU by Christina Aguilera

When I lose the will to win,
I just reach for you and
I can reach the sky again
I can do anything
‘Cause your love is so amazing,
‘Cause your love inspires me

This song is the oldest in this list based on the year it was released but it never gets old to me. Whenever I think of this song, I think of my parents. If you would ask me what song would I dedicate to my parents, this is it. Why? Because all the important things that I would want to say to them is in this song. It is perfectly written to make the person you’re singing it to feel special and loved. The lyrics struck me hard because of the fact that for the longest time, in my 23 years of living, my parents have been my rock. They are always there to guide me, support me in all my decisions in life and to just love me. I just couldn’t imagine life without them. They are my main inspirations and my role models. I love them very much.

What are the songs that describes you as a person? Comment below! I would love to hear it. 🙂

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