On fainting in a train station and being grateful for it

I believe a perfect life is a boring life. One must have a few embarrassing moments here and there to laugh about sometimes to escape the stress and insanity that we are facing everyday. But then, I know that all of us have moments that made us pray so hard for the ground to open up and swallow us whole so that we will not be obliged to face the day after. I had many of those moments, but I guess the best ones are the ones you will always remember even years after.

This will be a lengthy post. I suggest you grab your popcorn and read on!

One fateful afternoon during my first year of college, me and my classmate/friend had to go to an electronics shop to buy supplies for our subject that day. The shop was a little far from the university and we had to take the LRT so that we don’t spend too much time traveling.

While going there, I already had this pounding headache because I did skip my breakfast that morning as I was running late for school. Let me tell you that I don’t usually skip my breakfast, I can count on my fingers the times that I had because I know it’s the most important meal of the day.

So, upon arriving at our destination, I can already feel my knees slightly turning into jelly and I was sweating cold beads of sweat. That time, I can only remember telling myself in my head “Just do this one task for school and after this you can eat and feel much better”. Little did I know that I was officially the color of a ghost at that time. My friend was worried about me, so we rushed into buying all of the things that we needed.

Once we were finished, we headed for the LRT station again to return to school. By this time, I knew my eyes were wide open but I started seeing black on the edges of my vision. I can’t focus on anything, even the sounds and the things surrounding me. It’s like my body was so heavy all of a sudden. I know that I am starting to faint (Thank God I didn’t actually lose consciousness). I hugged my friend but because I caught her off guard, we both sunk to the floor. She said she have to buy me food immediately so I let her go.

So, there I was sitting on the LRT station floor, pale-faced, hands sweating and unconscious of the people passing by. Suddenly, out of nowhere, people started to notice me. They approached me and asked me if I was okay (maybe, I really look like cr*p at that time). I can’t forget the middle-aged man who gave me a bottled water saying “Don’t worry, it’s clean”. Some tried to help me stand up and volunteered to bring me to the clinic. Some passengers stopped walking and checked out the commotion that’s happening which, unfortunately, I’m in the middle of.

My friend returned a few minutes after with a donut and water in her hands. She was a bit surprised because 10 or more people were surrounding me and trying to assist me. If I was feeling a bit better at that time, I would probably be as red as a tomato because of embarrassment. Never in my whole life I have imagined to be the center of attention that way. A security guard also arrived and directed us to the clinic. The doctor didn’t find anything wrong with me, it’s just that I have an empty stomach (plus stress too, if I might add – because COLLEGE). He let me eat in the clinic and told me not to skip meals anymore.

It was truly a memorable day for me. There are some days when I want to forget that this happened once in my life. But by writing about it now, I can’t do that anymore. I don’t want to forget that day even though it definitely is an embarrassing one. I don’t want to forget the kindness that people have shown me in my weakest state. I know many people there are also running late and busy with their lives, but they took a few minutes out of their day to help me get back to my feet (figuratively and literally) and for that I am very grateful.

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Blog post inspired by The Daily Post: In Transit

Music Mondays: Chandelier – Sia

MUSIC THAT IS CURRENTLY ON REPEAT

I’m gonna swing from the chandelier, from the chandelier
I’m gonna live like tomorrow doesn’t exist
Like it doesn’t exist
I’m gonna fly like a bird through the night, feel my tears as they dry
I’m gonna swing from the chandelier, from the chandelier

I guess I have been living under a rock these past few months because I only heard of Sia’s “Chandelier” song just a couple of weeks ago. I don’t know where I’ve been all this time while this song has been garnering a lot of attention and views on YouTube. I knew I occasionally encounter it being played on music channels but never really bothered to listen. Also, the fact that the little girl freaked me out when I first tried to watch the music video, doesn’t help too.

Throw ’em back ’til I lose count

But the moment I got to finish it, I was in awe and can’t stop searching the web for more information about Sia and Maddie Ziegler (the little girl dancing in the video). My youngest sister even teases me about my obsession. I was drawn by the powerful message of the song (which is about alcoholism, btw), backed up by the brilliant concept and execution of the video. There’s something about the fluidity of the steps and creepy vibe that makes me watch it over and over again.

The song is pure genius and is my current on-repeat song. You can also watch the one-take version of the video and the performance of Sia (with her back to the audience actually – something about not wanting to be famous and whatnot) and Maddie at Ellen’s show below.

What’s your current jam? You can tell me about it in the comments. Ciao!

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If I could buy Love

if i Could buy love

i’d buy it in pair

like slippers that’s Always go together

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if i could buy love

i’d buy it in seveN

like snow whiTe’s dwarves in their own heaven

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if i could Buy love

i’d bUy it in dozen

like months in a Year the sun constantly wakens

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if i could buy love

i’d buy iT in hundreds

like Reasons in my head why you’re the one i wanted

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if i coUld buy love

i’d buy it in thousands

likE canaries singing from various islands

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if i could buy love

i’d buy it in milLions

like stars in the sky illuminating our visiOn

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if i could buy loVe

i will not buy it at all

for love is as pricelEss as can be

i’ll catch you if you’re willing to fall

Oh, look! I got 2 additional eyes!

Last month, I finally had the courage to get myself spectacles. I find it more difficult to see smaller and farther things for the past few months already. At first, I was in denial that I needed eyeglasses. One of the reasons was because most of my family are wearing glasses and I know from their experience that it’s NOT a good thing. “Nothing beats a clear vision”, they say. They had their own regrets of not taking enough good care of their eyes. So, when I started not seeing the volume on the TV and not being able to tell the time without standing up from the couch to the wall and squint my eyes so that I can see, I panicked a little. That’s because I had my whole life eyesight planned out (as if you can plan something like that! LOL!). In my mind, I promised myself to be like my father because he only got glasses in his late 40’s and it’s because of his age (our eyes become weaker by this time) which is a normal (I think) occurrence in a person’s life.

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My new glasses 🙂

Obviously, because I’m in denial, the first thing I did was to completely ignore my eyes’ pleas to have glasses. So I IGNORE it, IGNORE again and IGNORE some more to my heart’s content. But then, you already know what happens next, right? It got worse, you see (no pun intended). So I have no choice but to go to an optometrist and had my eyes checked. The first time I wore the glasses, I got a little bit dizzy and had a mild headache but after a few hours, I think my eyes already adjusted so all is well. I can see things clearly that I haven’t been able to see before.

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While pondering about this experience, I had this thought about life that sometimes, if you feel like the world in front of you is a little bit unclear, blurry and unrecognizable due to something obstructing your vision, sometimes, all it will take is to step back and view the world with a different set of eyes (figuratively, not literally LOL!) and everything would be a clearer version of itself.

Now, if I could only be as adorable as Taylor Swift in glasses, I would be so happy. 🙂

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